Dear MM (hide the name)

Dear MM,
I wish we could talk about this, it seems like it isn’t going to come up… who knows about the future! But I need to get this off my chest… I’m so hurt and guess you can say kind of upset with you. Where do I start? I guess the beginning would be best! When I first met you I didn’t think we would have got so close but we did. I saw that you are a well rounded person that knows a lot and came from the same home town I did! As time passed and our jobs became the same, we got so closed and were always together. I even started staying at your house to watch over it and the dogs. You became my best friend and I looked at you like an older sister! I confined in you with everything. When I really need you, you were completely there. You always find a way to cheer me up when I was down. It was an honor to be apart of your wedding! It was great to plan your bachelorette party. When I got pregnant with Alessandra, you were so happy and were stated to be the God mother. You offered to help my mother and mother in law with the baby shower. And that’s were things started to change; you offered but really didn’t help. Yea I asked you to my hair and make up and yea I was running late but I had no clue you had the cake. You up even more late with the cake when you could have brought it much earlier. Beside that because really it didn’t bother me too much, you offered to babysit Alessandra in the morning and that gave me a peace of mind. But little did I know you made other plans. And don’t get me wrong I completely support you in whatever you do in your personal life but bother me was that you never came to talk to me about and how it was going to effect the babysitting. I brought up you going to school and you stated “oh yea I did you will need a babysitter on Fridays because I go to school Friday and Saturday” so I said ok my mom can watch her Friday. And that the last I heard from you about it. But then one day I called you on Thursday and you texted me saying that you couldn’t talk because you were at school. And that’s when I did what I had to do for my family and my peace of mind. I found a babysitter and stayed quiet because you were. Time passed and yet I haven’t heard a word from you. I know I’m back but you have not asked who is watching her. I think that’s completely wrong. You should have talk to me about it or even told me something but you still quiet.

STILL WRITING.....

The Climb lyrics

I LOVE THIS SONG!!

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Today I'm feeling down...

I first have to state that I’m truly blessed in so many ways but why am not happy? I feel really depress today with no idea why and when I try to think why I feel like crying so I stop thinking about it because I don’t want to cry! But I guess when I get home and after I put the baby to bed I need to think about it and just cry if I need to ;-( have you ever felt that way? Help me be happy!

Wednesday's Twitter moment...

• Happy Happy Joy Joy Andrea is here!! i cant wait to see her!
• home with hubby and princess... making dinner and waiting for Andrea to come out already so i can see her!
• out of globe ttyl
• well i have to pick up formula today but im hoping i get to see my baby prima andrea today! we will see!
• having lunch yummmy!!
• ok the day is flying but i have so much to do and i need more time! ;-/ and th ecomputer is not working with me GRRRR >:-I
• Good morning twitt twitt! Liz and Gustavo i hope everything is good! and Andrea just come out you cant stay in there forever! luv you guys! xoxo

Tuesday's twitter moment...

• yayyyy 29mins left... im very sleepy today!
• getting a headache.... ;-(
• i hate these letters GRRRR
• DONE WITH THE NOTICES OFF TO OTHER 100 THINGS I HAVE TO DO!
• WORKING ON NOTICES AND OFF TO THE BACK FOR THE LETTERS!
• WHY DO I CARE TOO MUCH? I ALWAYS END UP GETTING HURT ;-( BUT THATS ME A CARING PERSON! I GUESS I NEED TO GET USE TO GETTING HURT! ;-/
• good morning twitt twitt

BABY IDOL #2 ON WTE FEB BABIES 2009

WELL I WASNT ONLINE WHEN THEY HAD THE FIRST ONE SO I WAS HAPPY TO BE APART OF THE SECOND ONE I TURNED IN LIKE 20 PICS AND ALESSANDRA WON 6: BEST BUM- 3RD PLACEBEST EAR- 3RD PLACEMISS PATRIOTIC- 1ST PLACE YAYYYBIKE BABIES-2ND PLACEBFF WTE- 2ND PLACEBEST HANDS IN THE MOUTH- 2ND PLACE

Monday Twitter Moments..

• @u_neek047 well my daddy is angel and ur daddy to andrea! lol
• @xandercoded IT'S "BEEBA" GET THE SPELLING RIGHT XANDER! LOL
• eating my salt and vinegar and publix ice tea again ;-)
• AWW MY PRIMA WILL SOON HAVE HER BABY... GOD BLESS HER AND GUSTAVO AND BABY ANDREA! I HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU 3! XOXO
• @jellybug4 I CRY FOR EVERYTHING WITH HER... WHEN HER CORD DROPPED I CRIED, WHEN SHE STARTED TALKING (BABY TALK) I CRIED! SHE MELTS MY HE
• @jellybug4 I KNWO AND WHEN SHE DOES ILL BE CRYING! ;-(
• @RavensMama THANKS THIS WAS MY FIRST TIME DOING IT AND I LOVE IT!
• and weighting at 16lb since friday appt!
• Princess is 5months today! YAYYYY
• good morning twitt twitt

Sunday twitter moments...

• finished the letter...
• WOW IM SOO HAPPY MY BABY WON 6 CATEGORIES OF FEB 2009 BABY IDOL YAYYYY
• writing a letter for Joe's family and friends for the services

Friday Twitter Moment...

• BYE BYE GLOBE SEE YOU MONDAY!
• 14 MINS AND IM OFF TO THE PRINCESS DOCTOR APPOINTMENT! DIVIDING THE SHOTS MAKE THINGS HARDER BUT I RATHER THAT WAY THEN TAKING THE EASY
• GOD PROMISES A SAFE LANDING NOT A CLAIM PASSAGE!
• YAYY its friday and we are going to have a family night... just alexander, alessandra and me!! YAYY
• im happy today... my hubby got me flowers just because it was thursday! ;-) and he didnt get me the flowers i hate ;-) I LOVE YOU ALEXANDER!!
• doing daily notices... ;-/
• did i ever tell you how much i love dunkin' donut?!?!? i have a donut for Andrea but Liz isnt here ;-( ill eat it for her ;-)
• Good morning twitt twitt

This weekend....

Well this weekend was great! Friday i took ALessandra to the doctors and she weights 16 lbs YAYY my big princess! and after we went to dinner Alexander, MIL and FIL it was great Alessandra was happy and laughing and kicking her legs while we ate! lol! Saturday we went to the beach with MIL, FIL, Aunt and Uncle i got to ride the jetsky but it broke down on me AGIAN! i get my 30min ride was all i could have that day! lol but other then that the water was great Alessandra got in the water and everything! we stayed there like all day and after we went home and played "sequence" I LOVE THAT GAME! my mom and sister joined us and My MIL and i won 2 games! HAHAHA Sunday i cleaned the house! and went to Joann and got 3 books for Alessandra (who knew Jo ann had kids learning books they are awesome and only $5) well i got her tutu stuff so thats my project this week! after we ate and played sequence some more and just chilled!!
it was a great weekend with the family I LOVE MY FAMILY!!

Thursday Twitter Moments...

• good night twitt twitt
• I LOVE MY FAMILY SOOOOO MUCH!
• scapbooking with mommy norma!! ;-)
• bye bye bye work is over for today twitt twitt ;-)
• @ELIZABETHDIAZ09 LIZ, HOW ARE YOU DOING PRIMA?
• YAYY ITS 430PM ILL BE HOME SOON! I GOT MYA TONIGHT SO THAT WILL BE FUN!
• YAY TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!
• WOW ITS 3PM WHERE DID THE DAY GO?
• "i am not afraid of tomorrow, for i have seen yesterday and i love today!"
• Life is too short to waste it away! be thankful for everything... good or bad!
• gosh i miss my princess like crazy! ;-(
• BLA BLA BLA REALLY NOT IN A HAPPY MOOD!
• good morning twitters... its not a good morning for me ;-( a great leader of mine when i was in high school pasted away yesterday ;-( RIP Joe your in a better place!

TUESDAY'S TWITTER MOMENT

• bye bye out of work and off to my loving family!
• i think im pregnant? haha no im not but im eating like one... crazy snacks all day!
• longing in counts and postages of the notices... bla bla bla
• im bored.... ;-/
• WORKING ON CCCU LETTER GRRR....
• im bored i want to go home and relax in my bed with my baby girl and if hubby isnt busy working then he needs to jump right in! ;-)
• cropping pictures... liz i have some old pics of you too! hahaha
• @ELIZABETHDIAZ09 WOW THAT IS SO CRAZY THAT WE ARE BLOGGING AT THE SAME SPOT! LOL!
• i have a headache... ;-(
• yay my princess sleeps through the night woohooo
• Hello twitter... Have a nice day!

WEDNESDAY'S TWITTER MOMENTS

• ok good night twitter
• "don't cry for money because it doesn't cry for you!" just heard that on tv!
• playing uno on facebook haha
• people really need to count your blessing... i know i'm truly blessed!! Thank you God for what you have blessed me with!!
• yayy im home with family and loving every minute of it
• 10MORE MINS LEFT AT GLOBE YAYYY
• @ELIZABETHDIAZ09 OHHHHHHH YEA SHE REALLY NEEDS TO FILL IN THE BLANK! ;-)
• 1 MORE HOUR LEFT OF GLOBE AND OFF TO PRINCESS ALESSANDRA AND SUPER DADDY!
• @ELIZABETHDIAZ09 ABSOLUTELY FOR WHAT? I HAVE WROTE TOO MANY THINGS TODAY! LOL! AND ABOUT THE BROAD GAME... SEQUENCE IS SO MUCH FUN!
• COLORING PAPERWORK... HAPPY! HAPPY! JOY! JOY!
• GOT MORE WORK TO DO!
• OH NO "PAIN IN THE BUTT" IS COMING TO MY DESK TO "EXPLAIN" SOMETHING... CAN WE SAY BLA BLA BLA! LOL
• LUNCH IS OVER SO BACK TO WORK... UMM I THINK ILL MAIL OUT THESE 9X12 AND PUT IN THE COUNTS OF THE NOTICES!
• FINALLY HAVING LUNCH... HOT POCKET, WATERMELON AND YUMMY PUBLIX ICE TEA! ;-) YEA IN KNWO YOUR JEALOUS OF MY LUNCH HAHAHA
• @ELIZABETHDIAZ09 HOMEWORK FOR ANDREA.... MY BIRTHDAY IS JULY __, 2009... ANDREA FILL IN THE BLANK PLEASEEE!! ;-)
• CROPPING PICTURES AGAIN... GOSH I DIDNT KNOW I WOULD BE CROPPING 75PLUS PICTURES..
• PICTURES MAILED!
• MAILING OUT PICTURES OF ALESSANDRA! GOSH SHE IS ALWAYS TAKING PICS LOL I LOVE PICTURES OF MY PRINCESS! NEED TO SAVE FOR HALLOWEEN AND GETTING IDEAS READY!
• I LOVE SAYING I HAVE A DAUGHTER AND IM A MOMMY! YUP YUP IM ONE PROUD MOMMY! I LOVE YOU ALESSANDRA... I LOVE YOU TOO ALEXANDER!
• GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT BABY FORMULA IS CHEAPER AT BABYLOVE THEN BABIES R US AND PUBLIX!
• WORKING ON DELRAY FILES... BLA BLA SAME SHYT EVERY WEEK
• IDK WHAT IS IT ABOUT SALT AND VINEHAR CHIPS AND PUBLIX ICE TEA THAT TASTE SO GOOD TOGETHER! HAHA
• Gosh if its not the "laca" its the "pain in the butt" well at least "laca" is not here today! front desk is all mine hahaha... lonely without my preggo ;-(
• GRRRR "Pain in the butt" i know how to do my job... get off your high horse and get stop being on my a$$!
• Good morning twitter... have a nice day!

Favorite TV Shows

Well the 3 top TV shows are...

1. One Tree Hill (starting back on Sept 14 YAYY even though that is far from now)
2. Grey's Anatomy (Staring back on Sept 24 YAYY even thats longer time from now)
3. Private Practice (staring back on Oct 1 YAYY even more longer time from now)

just wanted to share!!

new update about the princess...

Alessandra is 4 months, 3 weeks, and 3 days old, getting bigger everyday! She is now 15lbs 14oz since Friday and 26 inches long!

She is starting to eat solids but only when she wants them! It’s always her way or the highway! Lol! It seems like she likes carrots right now! She thinks sweet potatoes are sour! Im trying to give her all the veggies and then give her fruits but the way she eats make it so hard! But we will see!

She loves her feet… they are so yummy to her teeth! And every thing goes in her mouth! And drooling on everything! Yea she is teething like crazy I hope her teeth don’t take long to come out!

She is such a happy baby that is very demanding! And it’s a different mood everyday with her! Lol!

She loves her Micky mouse’s clubhouse and jumper! It’s so funny watching her show on it! She jumps up when she gets happy! She hasn’t got to the point that she bounces on and on but she will jump once when she is happy!

4th of July we went to Naples, FL with Alexander’s Mom, dad, aunt, and uncle for the weekend! It was so nice, she loved the fireworks! I thought she would be scared but she wasn’t I think it was because we was far away from where they were lighting them.

Well there is my baby girl! ill keep you posted with her!

THOUGHTS AND UPDATE...

• MY HEAD HURTS... ;-( I THINK MY FRIEND IS COMING... I KNOW TMI!! HAHA
• FINALLY GOT SHYT DONE WITH TYPESTYLE'S SAMPLE YAYY THAT PAIN IN THE ASS JOB!
• FINISHING NOTICES
• AND I NEED TO FINISH CROPPING THOSE FAMILY PICTURES FOR MOMMY NORMA!
• AWW MAN I FORGOT THE SWEET POTATO FOR ALESSANDRA AT HOME... YUP I MADE MY PRINCESS HOMEMADE BABY FOOD! AWW IM A GOOD MOMMY!! ;-) SHE CAN HAVE IT WHEN I GET HOME!
• WHAT WILL I HAVE FOR LUNCH TODAY? SALT AND VINEGER CHIPS SOUNDS GREAT WITH A NICE SANDWISH! ;-p
• DID I TELL YOU I LOVE MICKY MOUSE CLUBHOUSE... WELL MY DAUGHTER DOES AND BECAUSE SHE LOVES IT AND WATCHES IT LIKE A GOOD GIRL I LOVE IT TOO!
• I LOVE PUBLIX ICE TEA! HAHA

YEA IM SO RANDOM! HAHAHA

kEEPING YOU POSTED

IM REALLY BAD WITH WRITING THINGS SO I THOUGHT WHY DONT I JUST KEEP YOU POSTED ON WHATS ON MY MIND, WHAT IM DOING, OR JUST SOMETHING I WANT TO TELL YOU! IF ITS JUST A LINE THEN SO BE IT IF NOT THEN YOU HAVE MORE INFO LOL! THIS BLOG WILL BE MY PRIVATE TWITTER! ;-)

HAPPY MOMMY

YAYY MY PRNICESS SLEPT THROUGH THE NIGHT AGAIN!! YAYYY

Monday July 13, 2009

Well this weekend was nice! Friday I took the princess to the doctor to get one of shots... she weights 15lbs 14oz (gosh she is getting big)! I love going to the doctors to see how big she is getting but I HATE WAITING FOREVER TO SEE THE DOCTOR! Well after being there for a hour and half I went home to wait for Alex to get home and we went out to dinner and his parents meet us there after we ate to go bowling! We went bowling with his parents and aunt and uncle! We had a GREAT time! Alessandra was so good! She likes looking around at people!

Saturday I woke up and got my hair done… if I may say it came out really nice! Alex stayed with the baby! I got home and we started to clean while Alessandra was making it so hard but MICKEY MOUSE’S CLUBHOUSE helped us! After we went to his parents chilled until we went to my dad’s to see my aunt that was in town! We had fun there telling jokes! We went home Alessandra was knocked out and Alex and I had sometime together before I went to bed! That was GREAT! We hadn’t had it in a long time!

Sunday Alex had to work at home so we and Alessandra went to his parents to chill and I washed clothes! We went to lunch with everyone… yummy yellow rice and chicken! (I will be having that for dinner lol) while we were leaving this lady was acting crazy with us in her car she is lucky I didn’t come out the car lol but we were the “bigger person” and left! We went back to his parents and played “sequence” my mother in law and I won! WOOHOO!!! Went home and Alessandra knocked out and guess what she didn’t wake up at all the whole night! AWW my princess is getting so big!

Well that was my weekend! Ttyl!

My first post... HEE HEE

Well I always love reading other peoples blog so I thought of making my own... BUT I am not writer or a person to keep on this every day but hey I will do it for fun!

All about me... My name is Bekka. My birthday is May 30, 1986 (just turned 23) my parents are Puerto Rican and I was born in Philly, pa! I was raised in North Lauderdale, FL and now live in Pembroke Pines, FL. I work at a marketing company as the data processing. I plan to stay at my job forever but also taking a new career in photography for fun and second job! Ill keep you posted on that!!

All about my hubby to be... Alexander, his birthday January 22, 1985 (just turned 24) his parents are from Cuba and he was born in Miami, FL. Raised in Hialeah and Pembroke Pines, FL. He is a programmer, web designer and everything else with computers lol! We met at work and we fell in love as soon as I filled out the application! Lol!

All about our princess... Alessandra Maria, she was born on February 20, 2009 at 6:15pm at Memorial Miramar weighted 6lbs 15oz and 21 inches long! She is the best thing in my life other then my family! She truly makes everyone smile and the best Blessing from God! I can’t wait to do so many things with her in the future!

OK I think that enough for today... ill share some more another day!